It's been WAY too long

May 3, the last time I entered a post
June 23, the second time. 9:18 pm, Philippines

Many things happened after leaving for Pangasinan for my lolo's burial. One good thing about the changes were the constant compliments I got from relatives far from where I live. Hahaha. Talk about affirmation.

Upon reaching Manila after the trip, things got haywire. Phone cut off, PLDT was slow at repairing and reconnecting the line, their stupid new SOP's that even Einstein would hate and the long month of absence from my Friendster account, this blog and my oh-so-favorite, MYSCENE. After that vacation, it was pretty much busy. Training, summer reading program, trips to National Bookstore and the constant "oh my! wala pa akong prom date" talk with friends. I know, prom isn't everything but it's the only happy non-academic staple there is in third year life. The rest of a junior's life would be books and the constant white hair appearance and for some, pimple breakouts.

Prom.

I never knew it came from the word Promenade. hahaha. well, I did but it wasn't a long time ago when I thought that prom was simply a four letter, non-shorcut word. (forgive me for my grammar or maybe my malapropisms...) hahaha. Prom isn't really that big of a deal for me because i have a bigger chance of going stag than hoping Matteo Guidicelli can be my prom date.

Him.

Oh my, did I just blurted that out? hahaha! Maybe, this post would end up in the wrong hands or maybe good ones so just to be clear, let me explain why i like "him". Matteo had always been an inspiration, not the yucky, musshy sort of inspiration but the "wow! I wish I was him" admiration. He's a champion karter, I loved cars. I wanted to pursue F1 racing, I think he did too. So everything started from that. Then, everybody found out about him. What the?!! Turns out he's also a model. The first issues of teen magazines he appeared on became his steeping stone on many girls' hearts but mine was different, it was his racing.

Racing.

Aha. My dad actually doubted I was a girl when he saw how much I loved cars, basketball, football (soccer), eating and getting dirty a lot. I know it's a joke so I don't really ponder on it that much. But really, i love these things. I'm your usual girly girl, I shop a lot, uses makeup when needed (i have skin asthma) and talks about boys. Even my main sport's pretty girly, I'm a volleyball varsity player so it pretty much added up to the "perkiness" my friends connect with me. You see, I'm just all about balance, I'm never satisfied mastering the other side, I have to master everything and it just so happens that I find my tough and pinky side goes so perfectly well together.

Friends.

I thought this year was going to be with the Twodettes, my classmates since freshman year. Our school semi-blocks sections and I thought, "hey, I'm pretty average so maybe I'm going to be stuck with them". Too much comfort I say, the next thing I knew, I was dispatched to another section only to find out I was the only twodette to remain in our old classroom and the only twodette to be transferred without anyone on my side. Talk about being a loner. It's hard to adjust especially when you grew up with certain friends. It's hard to move on when you're trying to get the most out of highschool because you know that you have to move on in college. It's hard to accept the fact that I'm no longer a twodette, maybe in heart and maybe because I'm still in section two that I will still be considered one; but I'm no longer a part of their class, and that I have to be part of another strongly-bonded section.

My section's nice and all, but I really don't feel as welcome. I don't get their jokes when they start to feel a sense of nostalgia, I don't know where to go when we're asked to group by friends and I can't open up when they ask me if I'm okay. I'm a little too formal now, I no longer can goof around and burp all I want in the classroom, I can't shout good morning murderers once I step inside the room and I can't even say love you guys! whenever I want now. Maybe it's better that I'm not with friends and I can solely focus on my studies and transcript but emotionally, I'm a wreck. But don't worry, it's nobody's fault. It's me who has to change.

Change.

Wow. that was pretty dramatic! anyway, change is going to be constant this year. Just last week, I met cousins fromt the US, Stephanie, Noelle and Paul. They're really nice but I wish to get to know them better. Ate Noelle's been very friendly and was actually surprising. She told me that her brother's girlfriend was Suite Life of Zack and Cody's Brenda Song and that was really shocking. I've never met Brenda and I only see her on tv and now, she's my cousin's special someone! WOW. That's a big change! Another change would have to be my club this year, I decided to take a risk and try out for all the clubs I've always wanted to try and I'm hoping I could join or pass at least one of them. Haahahaahaha.


My dad's asking me if I'm finished with using the internet. Although I'm not yet finished, I'll give way hoping you guys would still have the patience to read my future posts. hahaha rock on guys...


P.S.
If ever this falls into the hand of Matteo Guidicelli, will you be my prom date?