on breakdowns and summer bummers

thursday, 5:36pm, may sumtyn'sumtyn'

okay, so pc's still broken, spent a FORTUNE renting computers and ending up on the internet only thrice this summer. wow. but you see, i've been busy so gluing my eye on the screen was inadvertently avoidable.

i spend my whole summer lounging at first, possibly gaining weight, and well at the very start (and take note, it literally was at the start) of summer, hopelessly pining for a text message and devoting all my moolahs and sleep for an undeserving nitwit. (yeah, i'm still cool with him but i ain't gonna waste my time trying to if he doesn't want to) what's with boys and thinking that being friends with girls have to have next steps that they either want or despise? i make friends alright, but i always stay on that level, i don't assume. oh well, i guess i'm just pretty bitter about it but heck, i'm enjoying not having to spend cash on load where i only end up with a hi or sup or nyt or any other three-letter word he could come up with. hahaha. plus, summer's all about looking... wahahaha!

s0, i ended up having to go to school this summer for training! (hell yeah! i don't need to gain weight!)unfortunately, i ended up training while all my batchmates had their butts glued in armchairs for review. i do feel bad for myself, because i saw how bankrupt i was because of this situation. but, atleast, if i pass ateneo or up or any other school, it would mean i was good. it'll have a bigger impact because i didn't have any help. take that einstein! i'll also be a genius! hahahha!

aside from volleyball (where i ended up feeling stepped on, humiliated, backstabbed, regretted, and dumbfounded), i also ended up dancing. yes, i've come to love my talent. hahaha! i was contacted one unusual day and ended up meeting co-dancers and coaches and choreographers and actually realizing that i had just entered another world. (you see, when you get into a hobby and end up seeing yourself with the pros, you'll see that they have their own little world and that everyone's connected. i've seen badminton's, vball's and now, dance's!) hahahaha.

so there, i ended up with a hectic summer, no vacation at all, empty wallets, and jampacked varsity bags...


cheka.out.